let me tell you a little bit about me

maybe then you’ll understand

why I am the way I am

why i constantly fight, why im constantly upset

i wont start in the beginning, maybe some other time?

let’s just start when all hell broke lose

when my life fell apart

my grandpa, he was more than that, he was the dad that i never really had

i was scared shitless of him

he drank too much

but you always love dad, no matter what.

dad and mom left to san diego, because dad needed surgery

it took a long time for him to come back

i was with him for some while

im very familiarized with Scripp’s ICU

eventually he came back

he wasn’t better but he was sent back

dad died when he got home

i saw him

it was peaceful, he was sleeping

i told him to wake up but he was tired and didnt listen

my stubborn self, my stubborn family

we were scared

i dialed 9-1-1

they took too long

they took too long

he’s my best friend

no, not really

well, he’s been a good friend

a very, very good friend

yes, my best friend

he knows me so well

he just does

and i dont mean ‘oh he knows my favorite color,

he knows me so well’

no,

he figured me out

somewhere between those 10 years that we’ve known each other

with just one look he knows if im upset

how the bloody hell does he do that?

and now i think

i like him

but not as before

it’s more

and it’s wrong

i knew, he loved me

as a friend and more

but no

i had to stick around with the wrong guy

and now that it’s too late

he’s going to prom with ‘her’

who the hell is ‘her’?

he is MY best friend

MY dancing partner

he is mine….

i’ve known him longer

oh how stupid i can be

it is true

you only know what you have until you have lost it.

it’s undeniable dear

this is so much stronger than me

i fell in love

there’s no doubt

i love you

it hasn’t been easy

we know it won’t be easy

but we’ve made this far

honey

we will get by

with a love like this

we have nothing to worry about

1922 

 <3.

we’ve been through this before

she thought it was over

that it wouldn’t come back

but she’s sinking

sinking

darkness is creeping into her life once more

she’s slipping

slipping

i’ve lost grip of my life.